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Disillusion

(Instrumental)

[Verse 1]
I wander in ethereal field
I can't remember how long I've been here
I don't know when I need to breathe or not
And now, I'm just feeling lost

[Chorus]
Into the toxic garden
You're walking by
Into the toxic garden
You're walking by

[Verse 2]
Now I'm falling in this endless hole
No light at the end of this tunnel
I don't know whether I will wake up
So please, take me up!

[Chorus] (×2)

[Verse 1]
Once I was lost
Questionning myself
About to get shot
Life was meaningless
Then an outstretched hand
Showed me the divine way
Showed me the divine way
But…

[Chorus]
Why God
Do I believe in you?
Why God
Do you need me to do
These painful things?
Wouldn't it make me sin?
Oh dear Lord,
Are my believes useful?
Dear Lord,
I feel like I'm getting fooled.

[Verse 2]
I come home late at night
With few recognition
My work pays well, alright
But it's a hard situation
I give my family a home
But I can't see them at all
But I can't see them at all
So…

[Chorus]

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[Verse 3]
My brothers are falling down
Now, I must revenge them
But I cannot press my gun
After reading his wife's pain
In the eye of my ennemy
He's got a life, just like me
He's got a life, just like me
So…

[Chorus] (×2)

(Instrumental)

(This song is freely inspired by this story)

[Part 1]

[Verse 1]
I met my wife, two years ago
Since then, my life has started to glow
The house, the dog, the holidays
The workweek's grind, the walks on sundays

[Chorus]
The time flies fast
I think I need to slow down
My growing past
One day will make me drown

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[Verse 2]
Then in our life, a son, a daughter
Each day, their smiles make me stronger
It's so endearing, how they marvel
At life, for them, so beautiful

[Chorus]
The time flies fast
Leaving a bittersweet feeling
Of loving a child
Who will one day take flight

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[Chorus]
The time flies fast
I think I need to slow down
My growing past
One day will make me drown

[Part 2]

(Instrumental)

Time frightens me
The older I get
The shorter my days
So please tell me

If I still have more days left to live
Than I have already lived?

My wife is falling ill
My children are leaving
Mum can't remember me
I'm alone

I'm sorry for all these times
When I didn't take time to slow down
Slow down
Slow down

I'm not afraid of dying
I just want to have time to live enough

Do do do do do do do
Time to slow down
Da da da da da da da
Time to slow down…

[Part 3]

Sometimes I think
Good memories
Became just faded joys
You may just remember
With sounds, images,
Smells or tastes.
But it will never
Feel like the truth again.
Nostalgia is a pain.

The only solace I find
Is in this embracing light
Now, I just patiently wait
For the last breath I will take
The memories of my distant loved ones
Can never replace their presence again
I would better fall into dementia
So I will never feel loneliness anymore.
Maybe this light will help.
Maybe this light will help.
Maybe this light will help.
Maybe this light will help.

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[Part 4]

A jolt in my chest.
A pain in my whole body.
Why I am now here
Lying in this hospital bed?

How possible it is
To reduce an entire dreamt life
To a few brain cells ashes?

How possible it is
To love an imaginary wife
And my children I now miss?

The doctor said
I was in a coma
For only one day
And how lucky I was
To survive a car crash
While the other driver
Will never wake up.
Never wake up.

Oh please.
Bring me back my dreamt life.
I don't want to live with this feeling of guilt.
Bring me back my beloved wife
And the family I will never have here.

Oh please…
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[Verse 1]
I'm just going to die
I have lived my best life
I won't tell any lie
To whom I'll find in the sky

[Chorus]
It's the end of me
And I will, now, be free
It's the end of me
And I will, now, be free

[Verse 2]
I'm counting my last breaths
In my sweet graveclothes
It's getting black and bright
I walk to this pure light

[Chorus]

[Verse 3]
I feel loved, I feel good
So relieved in this wood
It's my time, just let go
I'm ready, just let go